My mind swirled in a hundred different directions. Anxiety over unemployment melted my strength over and over. The battle was fierce and the battle was daily. Still is.
As are the God-moments – the lessons in grace.
Today I ventured to the grocery store. Mind you, a smile was on my face, but tears were right behind my eyeballs. Anxious thoughts percolated through my mind. Dollar marks flashed like lightning strikes with every purchase.
I have to make sure we have enough left for gas to get to church Sunday, I thought. Let’s just say I was not thinking this with thanksgiving in my heart. Nope. I was thinking this with murmuring, whining, and maybe a little gnashing of teeth. Just sayin’…
My heart was not a pretty sight.
And then I heard the Lord’s whisper, “Nan, are these thoughts worthy of praise?”
“No,” I said. “But neither is our bank account.”
“Oh, really. Do you have enough for today?”
“Do you think I can take care of tomorrow?”
“Yes, Lord. I know You can, but…”
“But what? Either I’m God or I’m not.”
“Well of course You’re God, but…”
“No buts. Stop and consider your thoughts. Are they thoughts of My faithfulness? Are they thoughts of My provision and grace? My power? My ability to part The Red Sea for my children? No! Your thoughts are on your have-nots instead of your haves. You, Nan, are My child, My heir. I hold You in the palm of My hand. I have NEVER failed you, nor will I ever. I AM Jehovah-Jireh, your provider. I AM Jehovah Rapha, your Healer. I AM Jehovah Shammah, the God Who is there with you, and I AM El Roi, the God Who sees and knows all about your situation. I AM, Nan! And I am with you.”
Ahem...God has a way with words, don’t you agree? But, He was right. I was allowing my thoughts to run wild – to be pliable in the hands of my enemy, Satan. Satan can’t touch my spirit, but he can wreak havoc with my mind if I allow him. And that’s exactly what I was doing.
The Apostle Paul gave the Church at Philippi strong instructions concerning their thoughts. “Finally, brethren, whatever things are TRUE, whatever things are NOBLE, whatever things are JUST, whatever things are PURE, whatever things are LOVELY, whatever things are of GOOD REPORT, if there is ANY VIRTUE and if there is ANYTHING PRAISEWORTHY – think on these things. The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you” ~ Phillipians 4:8,9.
I began to speak what is true: If God is for me, who can be against me? My God can make a way where there seems to be no way. Nothing is too difficult for My God. God goes before me and gives me favor. He holds me with His righteous right hand. My God has a future and a hope for me. He promises to work everything together for my good.
These are the things that are true.
These are the things worthy of praise.
I placed the groceries in my car, this time with a thankful heart. My fear was gone. The suffocating anxiety had lost its power. Peace flowed freely.
Would you like to know why? My spirit was lifted on high with thoughts worthy of praise.
You, Lord, are worthy of our praise. You are the One True God, Maker of heaven and earth. We belong to You. When we allow our focus to stray from You I ask that You gently turn our face to behold Your beauty once again. Bring our thoughts captive to You, Sovereign Lord. Thank You for Your peace and Your amazing grace.
If you received Morning Glory via email, please visit the Morning Glory page. I’m featuring a music video from Passion 2013 with David Crowder singing, “Here’s My Heart”. This song will lead you in humble worship before the throne of grace. It is amazing.