“What?? What was that?” I said.

Something hit the top of my head as I sat totally alone on the loveseat in my writing office. There were no cats in the room. There was no one jumping up and down – not even walking. There was only me and Jesus.

But something hit my head.

I began to search for the culprit. There, lying on the floor next to me, was the enormous pheasant feather I keep on the top shelf of my bookcase. It’s been there for two years. This feather tumbled from the shelf and hit me in the head. The timing was perfect. (I know. You’re dying for the backstory, right? Right?? Get ready, you’re not going to believe it.)

My morning had been wrought with anxiety, accentuated with gut-wrenching sobs. Seriously. We were overdrawn at the bank. Our pantry was almost bare and don’t even think there was food in the freezer. Nope. That was long gone. Two years of unemployment is definitely a challenge in the food department. The overdrawn notice in our bank account broke me. Totally.

I knelt in my office and wept. I poured my heart and frustration and fear and despair out before the Lord, asking Him to refill me with His perfect peace. My body shook with emotion. My spirit clung desperately to the One I trust.

And then He whispered to my broken spirit:

Nan, do you not know that I hold you in the palm of My hand? Have you not heard? I love you with an everlasting love. I have never failed you and I will not fail you now. I will make a way in the desert places. Even now I am making the crooked places straight. Even now. Do not fear my little one. I AM sovereign. I AM merciful. Do not fear. Take each moment with Me. Walk with Me. Talk with Me in the cool of the evening. Do not let the cold of the midnight scare you, for after the midnight comes the dawn. I AM the God of the dawning. You are blessed, child. Do not fear. I will make a way.

 “Do not let the cold of the midnight scare you, for after the midnight comes the dawn. I AM the God of the dawning.”

Wow! I began to rest in His secret place.

I curled up on the loveseat with my bible. I read from the psalms and then a cross-reference took me to Job 8:21, “He will yet fill your mouth with laughing, and your lips with rejoicing.”

I sat for a moment pondering these words, and then it happened.

Out of nowhere the feather hit me on the head! At first I giggled, but that quickly morphed into hysterical laughter. I laughed healing, belly aching laughs. Cleansing tears flowed freely down my cheeks. Those of you who know me personally know that I encourage folks all the time to hide beneath the shadow of God’s wing. Psalm 57:1 reads, “Be merciful to me, O God, be merciful to me! For my soul trusts in You; And in the shadow of Your wings I will make my refuge until these calamities have passed me by.”

Beneath the shadow of His wing…

I’m listening, Lord. 

Father, Yes, your love is extravagant! I believe I will always stand amazed at how the Creator of the Universe – the One True God – knows me personally. Thank You for that knowledge. And you know what else? I love that You have a sense of humor. Thank You for helping me laugh last week when I surrendered to the fiery darts of the enemy and melted in despair. You could have told me You were disappointed in my lack of faith, but instead, You made me laugh. Wow! I love You, Lord. And, although I don’t know how you’re going to sustain us, I know You will because that’s the kind of God You are. I love You, Lord. With all my heart, I love you.
I’m getting my speaking engagements on the calendar for spring. I would absolutely love to spend time with your ladies, sharing laughter and tears as we seek the Lord together. My website, Nan Jones, has all the info or you may contact me directly at nan@jubilantlight.com.
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